weekends were great.
had a lot to eat. EAT EAT EAT.
went to cycle for first time and koi too.
every moment with him is just perfect.
i want it to last.

scrubbing his back every weekend is routine.
our form of intimacy.
we were hugging in bed this morning
when he said,
"this is what i love most about every book out."
and i replied,
"this is what i love most about every weekend."
(: i love you.

i keep thinking to myself.
this person that i love right now, this moment.
would be the man i'm gonna marry.
he would be the father of my child.
the one i'll hold hands with at old age.
i'll not let him down.
i will make our plans work out. i promise.

results were disappointing.
gotta take another year. failed some.
sucks. cant afford to lose heart right now.
i will do better next year! i will.
cant afford to disappoint anyone
and myself again. i cant.
come on girl! you can do it! HAVE FAITH.
i cant be distracted. no, i wont be.
its my make it or break it point.
johanna! JIA YOU.


/i'll do whatever it takes to stay by your side.